SWEET SIXTEEN
Yup, finally reached this age...although apparently i seem much older anyways. Sarah + Michelle came into my Bio class today and delivered my card + gift, all decked out in their classy st.mikes uniforms. aha, it was good. Ricky came into work with a cake + candles..delicious cake..hilarious time with my co-workers..aha. From my imediate family, I got some classy makeup + a cell which i'm going to pick out on friday/saturday. Grandma  + cousin Andrea are coming on Saturday/Sunday. Best buds are taking me out soon for dinner. My day was wicked, thanks to everyone who made it so wonderful

THOUGHTS
I'm terribly afraid of being hurt emotionally. Jumping into stuff real fast and much too early is what i always seem to end up doing. I think it all roots back to a trust issue, rather a mis-trust issue.

1. Ever wonder how much you really mean to another person?
2. And the thoughts of this other person get to you like nothing else?
3. To a point where you cant even stand to be online or on myspace because you'll feel disappointed that the person won't respond in the same manner in which they behaved in when you wre out together?
4. But you know its not the same feeling as liking a person?

Just some crap going through my head i guess, but its really bothering me. maybe the cure is another outing with this same person, who knows..definetely not I. Until then, I think i may go temporarily insane. Erm, i guess thats it for now.
ex oh caro

you know you are a rower when...
you dont mind walking through frozen birdshit barefoot
everything you do is "in 2..."
you need to have a small pushy person around telling you what to do all the time
you can get up, get dressed and get out of the dorm before your eyes are fully open
the phrase "cox box" doesnt make you giggle
you believe the world wouldnt exist without spandex
you only recognize your friends from behind
when you need to go anywhere, you have the sudden urge to throw your car over your shoulder
before you go anywhere, you are at main 20 minutes early
you stick water bottles in your shorts for no reason at all
you feel naked without clothing enough for 10 people on
you believe all authority figures carry a magaphone
you sit in class leaning to your rigger
half you body is bigger then the other
you blame bad moods on "the set"
when you play softball at the company picnic you get phyched to get old people on your team for the age handicap
your friends need a rowing translator to decipher your language
you can wear the same thing every morning for a week and not think twice
you think sleeping late is waking up at 8:30
everything is a race, you walk fast to class, just so you can pass people
when you sit down in class you look for the tie in shoes
you constantly check the nuts in handrails, chairs, doorhandles, ect
you think gloves are for sissies but a nice pair of poggies is really stlylin
you bring up the beauty of the dawn and people give you blank stares
overhearing people talk about how little sleep they got causes you to smirk, and maybe get medievil on their ass
your vision of going away for the weekend is other peoples vision of hell
you admire the man wearing boxers under his spandex much more then the woman wearing a g-string under hers
you watch videos together and its ok to say "shes looking really long"
you know more then 4 brands of porta-johns by name
your giving directions to a friend and wonder why shes looking at you funny, until you realize, you just said "turn to port" instead of take a left
you dress and undress one handed so you dont have to take ur hand off the oar
everytime you sit in a chair you are mildly suprised to discover that it doesnt slide back and forth

live to row! ex oh caro

Tomorrow (sunday) I shall be leaving for my month of away time. You should write me a letter. If you dont have the address, nor do you have access to it then maybe you shouldnt be writting me. lol. kintail in one week, 7 sleeps and 6 of which will be at my summer house. and then i'm off to camp counsel. I'm so excited for camp, you've got no idea. anyways, bed time now. gotta get up the earliest all summer..8am *gasp*. so i'll talk to you all in september.
ex oh caro

"The only man a girl can depend on is her daddy."

     Ever heard this quote? Its from Grease, Frenchy says it to Sandy. Well, it isnt true for me, not anymore. I can no longer depend on my father because he just doesnt know how to interact with me and is too stubborn to learn. I think verbal abuse has the same impact as physical abuse, as both make you feel worthless.
     So, I think this is why I've resolved to having more guy friends than girls, because I dont have a happy present male figure in my life. So by having all these great guy friends, I think the void willl fill eventually.
     I guess I wanna thank every guy friend that I have for putting up with my mood swings after dad comes home and for giving me a place to come to when i need to get outta the house. love you.
ex oh caro

Ways to Piss Me Off
5. Cut me off from any outings with my best friend and then try to tell me you dont hate her.
4. Tell me you're willing to drive me to St. Kitts and then when I ask, it doesnt happen.
3. Become a real good friend + go out all the time with me and then stop after 2 months.
2. Force me to do something, like a chore, when you kow i'm going out + need the time to get ready.
1. Expect me to clean up after you when mom isnt home because i'm the eldest.

eff. sucks to bad moods.
xo caro

 So this evening's adventures consisted of Sarah (Szenasi), Ryan, Whitney, Marko (for a short time), Collin (also for a short time) and I! So we're all in Sarah's car + we decide to go to Port Dalhousie, because Ryan had never been there. It was good fun. Marko bought me ice cream + it was really messy..all over my face + hands. funny. i think Sarah's got a picture of that too. we left to chill out with collin..at ryans house. i missed curfew by like 22 minutes..dads all angry + its weird because he's never here when i get home, so a curfew hasnt ever mattered..thus why i have no curfew + i only go home because my super cool mum doesnt sleep well when i'm not home + i'm considerate =).anyways, bed time
xo caro

PICTURES! (minus the 'S')

my dear marko..very cool picture..i like it alot.
Sarah has some pictures shes got to send to me..maybe i'll put them up..they're good + contain stories =)